The journey begins!

I’ve been searching the meaning to my life from that day onwards. I have been making all kinds of hasty decisions, falling into problems created by my own impatience and instability to which I am answering till today. As a youth I always wanted to get married to someone, who loved my soul than my body, for something that I am and not for something that I have, and Ahhhh i got up one day from the darkness of my dreams and received a blessing in disguise, walked into my life with the man of my dreams the final Mills and Boon’s character after falling into innumerable crushes.

Since then, I have accepted the terms and conditions of the so called society and life moves on subtle with all kinds of its variations and disturbances like everybody else. NOWWW! This is something I never wanted, live a life like everybody does. My friend and I, often have a debate upon our ideas, of true love, and I always defend myself saying at the end of the day, you have to stay happy with what you have and not feel sad about what you could not get, my friend as witty as I am, still stresses on her point, that she would never marry a man she never loved. Is marriage really love, or does everyone you love certainly turn into marriage, has always been a question to me. If marriages were really made in heaven, then why do many people get into relationships they never wanted to have. If love is marriage then why does the one whom you claim to love with all your heart and soul and with everything that you have, walk away from your life as if it never was. WHY is a question to which the answers lay beneath your heart somewhere, and it’s because of this, that you make yourself content, with what you have.

There is a little story that I would love to share!

A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"

The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the wheat field and choose the biggest wheat and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the field went thru first row, he saw one big wheat, but he wondered....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is an even bigger one waiting for him.
Later, when he finished more than half of the wheat field, he started to realize that the wheat is not as big as the previous one he saw, he now knew he missed the biggest one, and regretted.
So, he ended up going back to the teacher empty handed. The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person...."*


"What is marriage then?" the student asked.
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the corn field, this time he was careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reached middle of the field, he picked one medium corn that he was satisfied with, and come back to the teacher.
The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."*

Now! does this answer my question, about Love and Marriage. Well, I am surrounded by so many questions, that I am caught up in a maze not able to answer any. Let time do its magic and I shall wait upon time, to teach me my lessons as it always has!!!!!!!!